Everyday I face the same situation again and again, and everyday I have to feel sad, annoyed, angry, and sad again and again. That's when I wonder "What have I done to deserve this?".
I can't say "God is not fair", or "God is trying to punish me", I just don't know WHY things are the way they are...
Why the person who should loves me most, hates me instead? Why does this person is so selfish and ungrateful? I don't know, but I wish I coul have all these answers...
I wish I could call my sister a real sister, but she's not a sister at all. I can't call as sister a person who always let me down, always has an ofense in the tip of the tongue, never says "thanks" and tries to make people dislike me... I wonder all the time why it happens, but I don't know...
I just know that I'm tired of it! I'm really tired of being called of what I'm not, I'm tired to arrive home and feel like it's not my home, I'm tired of people trying to make a fool of me...
And I'm tired to call as sister a person who isn't, or a person who doesn't do anything to deserve this title...
It's being my suffer, it's being my anguish, it's being my sadness, it's being my despair, and it's being my bitterness. Now I wonder again, how can I love a person like this? I don't know, I just know that each day that pass takes a little piece of this love, and soon there will be nothing to love...
